All my exes live in Texas... I think?

What is it about past loves that makes us think backward so often? I have found myself recently talking frequently about one of mine. Is it because I miss him? Am I so angry with him it just comes out in recollections of past times? I think it's because I'm trying to figure it all out and make sense of our waste of energy relationship. I spent so long not being honest with myself that I think I want to validate what happened. Which I can't because I didn't make any sense in the actions I made because I WAS lying to myself and trying to create this fantastical fairy tale I could live in. I'm a dreamer with too many ideas and I think I get stuck inside my head too often. It's not a good place to be when you should be logical. 

Relationships, although driven my emotion and heart, take a lot more logic than we give them credit for. I think its the logic in the equation that causes the relationship to be more mature. You don't say I Love You on the third date like you did when you were 15 simply because it isn't logical to feel that way. You set boundaries and rules to protect yourself because they make sense. We're supposed to be older and wiser and yet somehow I know so many girls about my age that are just throwing their hearts away to men who don't MAKE SENSE.

Logic is one of those things that can just get lost when we become selfish. I want this... I want you... And before you know it all your moneys spent and he's run off with his coworker.

Maybe I have a hint of bitterness because of the illogical decisions I have made and the way I felt because of them. Everyone has situations they have to move on from and my hardest ones happen to include my heart getting broken... or just confused?