YAY!

IM CHANGIN MY MAJOR AGAIN!!!!
Art teacher AWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

OK OK OK!

So in these past few weeks I have made a lot of realizations about myself. I have been transitioning from a past life that I loved. Austin represented a lot of creativity and fun and growth for me. Now that I'm in San Marcos, working heavily on my degree, I can start to feel myself transitioning from adolescent to young adult.
No, I'm no where near the end of my degree, but I have found that it is not through milestones that you find maturity and your path through life. It is instead through your own profound epiphanies that you move forward and create yourself. I know so many of my friends beginning to graduate and work on their own personal lives, and have began to notice they're not leaving me behind, but I'm moving with them. While some of my colleagues have a piece of paper, I have independence, I have self confidence, I have responsibility, I have love. I'm ready to slow down, and start enjoying focusing on the future.
After my bad summer (I like to call it this because it wasn't one single event, but a group of them that broke me down) I started doing a lot of self analyzing. What am I feeling, Why am I feeling this, and How do I change it? But recently I have started looking outward, how is THAT person effected by me? What change and good am I evoking? My only goal as a young child was to change the world around me. I think I'm getting closer to that.

I'm in love with a man who loves me not because of what I offer, but because I changed him. I recently tried to end our relationship because I was scared. I was scared of falling in love so hard again. I'm always afraid another Sam. So late at night on the phone, he cried to me that if it wasn't for me, he didn't know where he'd be today. I had saved him.
I sat outside my grandmother's grave recently and told her, "You just missed him, but I think this is the one. But don't tell anyone okay?"

Positive Change is what Makes Me Happiest.

I haven't posted on here in AGES.
DAMN.
Anyway...

Life is busy. Cleaning, Waitressing, Sleeping. You know how it goes. haha.

Nicole!

So I must say I LOVE my bestie.

I have never really mentioned her on here, except when making fun of past relationships because 50% of my opinion is always rooted in her advice. This past weekend we had talk after talk and all of them were so intellectual and either introspective or worldly. Topics of discussion included:

The Weather (in accordance to el nino/la nina)
Generation Gaps
Why we fall in love
Needs versus wants
How we learn
Why we learn the way we do
Why we're both crazy in our ways

My bestie is one amazing woman. I can't wait until I get over myself and get married so that she can be my maid of honor.
<3

Ephiphanies

So you can go to Texas State anytime and see the large number of people who look exactly the same. However, the greatest thing I have seen is the individuality in the people closest to me. My roommates are so sweet. I couldn't have asked for a less dramatic group of girls. I really am lucky.

I haven't found a job yet, but I know that if this interview on Monday goes well, I will have one soon. Johnny Carinos should hire me, which would be good. Also, one of the guys who works there lives in my apartment complex. (free ride to work?) haha. I don't think he knows that I know that we live near each other, but that's ok. I've always been one for being a creeper.

I am currently spending my weekend in Austin puppy sitting. It is so strange not being here permanently and running into people I used to know. Apparently last night Rain was THE place to be. I ran into EVERYBODY! It was awesome.

I can't wait for this semester. I have a pretty positive attitude.

Second Day of School!

So right now I'm technically working but the kiddos were watching T.V. and I couldn't help but want to update. I took my camera to school yesterday and got some really fun shots. And FUN NEWS the Texas State Facebook page is featuring some of them!

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/texas.state?ref=mf

But here were my favorites!


This is Texas State at 7:30 in the morning


Outside of LBJ (where my first class is)

Walking to class.

Old Main

The area that made me fall in love with Texas State.

First Day at Texas State

So I decided to make my first day of school interesting by celebrating my last night of freedom the night before. My amazing oldest friend (and facebook wife) Renee drove to San Marcos to kidnap me. We decided to go to The Saint, a club in San Antonio. Kathy came too so we had a fearsome threesome going on. However I had three drinks in under an hour. I had fun club stalking someone who in the end told me "Sorry I was with someone, maybe next time" HA! I WIN!

Anyway, this post is about my first day at Texas State. I didn't get home until 4am last night. I had an AMAZING hangover. So I drag myself out of bed and drive to campus, however I can't remember where the parking lot is. I drive around and finally find a commuter lot. I happened to pick the lot on the opposite side of campus from my class. HOWEVER I did walk from one side of campus to the other in 10 minutes and managed to make it to class on time. (well two minutes late, but that's quite the accomplishment for being lost all morning.

So class was average. It's a business writing course where you learn how to write resumes and cover letters. After class I bought a poster, and started walking back to my car. I made it all the way from Flowers Hall to LBJ and decided I didn't have the energy to walk anymore. I stopped in the Student Center, grabbed a taco, and decided to do some facebook stalking. There were two girls sitting at the table behind me and after some careful ease dropping I gathered that these girls were out at some point partying and had a really good time. THEN - Girl two says to girl one-
"So this morning I pulled out my tampon and a condom came with it"

SO. GROSS.

Welcome to Texas State.