Alright. As much as I love my life when it's rolling along and I'm going to class and doing my thing... I hate when it pauses. 

Thanksgiving break has been very typical. I sit around, hang out with my family, and eat pie. And Normally during break you celebrate the fact that all of your friends are in town and you get together right? Well no surprise here, every single one of the people I attempted to make plans with has flaked out on me. I even expect that tomorrow I will have a shortened time with Naomi. Maybe getting a meal in with her before I have to go to work. While I don't miss high school so much, I miss how much the friendships mattered. How important my twin dates were, how important watching I love the 70's was with Renee. The endless trips to Krispie Kreme... 

I don't have that anymore. I don't have a group of friends. I have one here in Austin. Nicole. She's amazing and I love her, but I wish I had that group dynamic. I want to be able to have my own place again and have wine wednesdays. I want to have people just hang out. But my life right now doesn't cater to that. I'm too busy. And I honestly don't have anyone that would show up if I did invite them over. 

But this is what happens when I pause. When I'm not fully busy filling my day, I'm dwelling on what if's and why not's. So on Monday school starts up again and I wont be so discouraged wishing I had something I'm missing. 

I think what I'm really missing is my best friend. But you tend to take a hint when someone quits returning your phone calls.